As cute as little Nemo was reciting those words, my first day was not similar in energy.

Don’t get me wrong. I was definitely curious about starting off with this bright and new first day, but not 100% excited about it.

However, I do expect it to get better, as I settle into a study schedule and get to know some folks on and around campus.

So, here’s to things getting better and me making a 4.0 this semester :]

Has anyone else ever just felt level headed and calm about a new experience? There’s something about knowing what you are about to get into that kind of takes the edge off the brand new and excited feeling.

I took a ‘Career Counselor’ test and here are the results:

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Best Occupational Category
You’re a CREATOR

Keywords: Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional.
These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.

CREATOR OCCUPATIONS

Suggested careers are:

• Advertising Executive,
• Architect
• Web Designer
• Creative Director
• Public Relations
• Fine or Commercial Artist
• Interior Decorator
• Lawyer
• Librarian
• Musician
• Reporter
• Art Teacher
• Broadcaster
• Technical Writer
• English Teacher
• Architect
• Photographer
• Medical Illustrator
• Corporate Trainer
• Author
• Editor
• Landscape Architect
• Exhibit Builder
• Package Designer

CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature. Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.
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I really like what I read up there. And it speaks to me. But it can also read like a generic horoscope, if you know what I mean… lol

I’m trying to remember where I got the idea that I wanted to work in medicine. I used to think I had a pretty practical upbringing and was encouraged to pursue career paths like medicine, law, or business.

It seems that encouragement to pursue medicine especially favored the associated prestige and average yearly salary. Another side belived in cultivating creativity and fostering entrepeneurial skills in order to truly become ‘rich’. Rich off your own ideas, so to speak.

Its interesting for me to recall these things. Growing up, I’ve felt more like I should always pursue the most ‘sciency’ or absolutely stable profession.

After completing a degree in Biological Sciences, I now see how keeping strictly along a biological sciences path makes all my life choices stay confined within a ‘sciencey’ checkbox. Its a little stifling.

I feel more open to the idea of chasing what I find to be creative and intellectually stimulating.

I’ve always entertained the idea of the healthcare field. And I love interacting with children. Playing games with them, helping them learn new things, watching them explore and process the world around them, and especially seeing them healthy and happy. So I’ve always harbored an interest in pediatrics. In trying to become more realistic I thought about what would be more important to me in life; do just want to have my own children (I hear that’s a job enough!), or also work with children OR is it possible for me to enjoy both?

Then, the type of work I’d want to do has been a little different; I’ve imagined having a graphic design firm whose projects and percentages of proceeds work to impact and improve the lives of women and children.

Now, I’m thinking of going into nursing…pediatric nursing at first then, becoming a pediatric nurse practioner. HOWEVER, I don’t think I want to deal with the pre-nursing clinicals and dealing with adult patients and their poop, pee, and all the other insane things they get themselves into. I made the mistake of googling ‘gross things nurses have to deal with’ and good Lord, I think I felt my determination go down. In nursing’s defense, who really wants to deal with those things, right? But I’m pretty sensitive to smells… and still having to work on ‘mind over matter’… when I remind myself of that, it makes getting through and over my dislike of adult sized feces seem a little easier– well that and realizing that there’s much, MUUUCH worse. But that kind of labor, I don’t think its me. Its one thing to clean babies…and another to clean adults.

In my time of intense ‘thinking’ and ‘wondering’ I’ve thought about how wonderful it would be if there was someone or some ‘ones’ that believe in me and helped me create a foundation, or take steps towards building myself up.

Most recently however, I see where I sound like I do not want to do the work or think for myself. That’s not the case at all.

Let’s try and stop and think about this,

For those that call themselves ‘self-starters’…’go-getters’…’picking themselves up by their boot-strappers’ who sit and may judge me for feeling like I am stuck in a deep catch-22. What I want you to stop and consider is the following:

Who was there at your beginning? It may not have been someone who believed in you, they might have just footed the bill. And if you thought for an instant, “Well, *I* got up and…” you like many have forgotten that there was still another human being who had to open up a door for you.

There was a beginning for all of us.

If you are among the more fortunate ‘go-getters’, you have/had a loved one that believed in you. That’s pretty rare, the older you get.

Or there was that trust fund, or that friend, or that newspaper article that your neighbor mentioned to you in idle conversation. — Point is, some other human being helped to orchestrate, ignite, fire-up whether directly or indirectly. And this beginning opened up a path. ( Now of course, once we are on our path, the decisions we make along the way are our own. But, more on that later.)

This point shows how human beings can connect and aid each other in moving forward. So don’t forget where you came from and who helped along the way.

Guess I just wanted to get that off my chest.

As my resolve to suceed gets stronger, as I figure out better ways to propel myself forward, I work on strengthening my heart. Especially working to not point fingers. To not cast blame on anyone else. Not who could have ‘done better’ to help me move forward, to help me gain more self-confidence, or discipline. The older we all get the more freedom we get to make decisions that can put us in better positions. Well, you know… as long as opportunities present themselves.

Hello! If you are here reading this, you are probably wondering where the other posts are and/or the other content. Well, recently I’ve read through a tutorial on designing wordpress themes (understood it) and am now working on getting some photoshop skills. Between now and a layout fully developed on my own, I may just get a more temporary yet customized theme and get back on this blog, sharing my thoughts with the worldwide web.
But until then, you can find me on twitter.com/nmkebee & lionesse.tumblr.com;
See you & thanks for reading!